Well, it has to be said from the offset that I ecne er been very big on New year’s resolutions and more a believer in working out our own resolutions at our own pace.
But this year, I feel like I should and that it seems to be good timing for some too. So I decided to give it a go.
New Years Resolutions
So, I’ve never really been one for needing a date marker to set myself Resolutions a d I usually just get in with them at my own pace, at a time that’s best for me to resolve them.
But It seems like I’ve finally managed to get my own house again, which is the thing I had been hoping for before the year is out.
Its also looking like I’m very soon about to finally get an appointment at the Gender clinic. So things seem to be coming together at last.
So it seems like a good time for reflection. Looking back over how far I e come and the struggle I e been through to get to where I am, as well as looking at where I’d like to be and things that hold me back.
It’s New Year again !
So, with New year just about here, I figured I’d shortlist a few goals of where I’d like to be ft his time next year.
im hoping that by writing this list down here, it may give me the extra push I need to get these goals achieved.
Resolutions for 2024
So here are my list of goals I’d like to achieve by the end of 2024.
Lose some Weight
well, I never ever thought that I’d have to deal with losing weight. I’ve always been a skinny malink as I’ve always had a very high metabolism .Even after 2 years of sitting on my ass during the Covid lockdown, I still never put an ounce on.
But recently I’ve started to notice I’m getting a bit of a belly and I don’t like it. So for the first time in my life, I’m actually contemplating dieting to lose weight.
I think I really just need to stop eating so many sugary cakes and sweeties and get back to eating fish. I also need to start getting more daily exercise as I think it’s the lack of this which is causing me to put weight on.
Work on my voice
This is probably my biggest priority because my voice is a big problem for me and is a big cause of dysphoria. Although I think my voice has softened and feminised a bit over the past couple of years, it’s nowhere near enough and I hate sounding like a man.
Its more when I’m talking to people I already know for a long time that I easily slip into my nervous masculine voice. Probably because I feel stupid otherwise, like I’m faking it. Sounding fake is something I’ve always wanted to avoid and so always kinda hoped I could just progress my voice feminisation naturally. But I think I have to push myself more.
Im hoping now that I have my own place and my own space, I will feel more at ease practising my voice without feeling stupid cos I know people can hear me through the walls like it was in the hotel I wa livibg in most of last year with nosey neighbors. So hopefully now I have rid of them, I’ll feel more confident in my own space practising my voice feminisation
This is something I know I need to really start pushing myself with this year even if I do feel stupid and fake to begin with. It’s better than hating myself for sounding like a man.
Go Hiking
Lack of exercise has been a big problem over the past few years, especially last year as I hardly even worked any festivals.
A lot of this has been due to living right in the middle of the town centre. So as soon as I walk out, I’m smack bang in the middle of it. With my anxiety, of end up just not going out, unless I really had to.
at least now I’m in a quieter place and have already been getting out more confidently . There’s a lot of country walks around my way so I aim to check some of these out over the next while.
Electrolysis
I want to get on with electrolysis on my face this year because its been a while since I stopped and I want to get it done so that I don’t need to worry about shadow breaking through my makeup later in the day and having to constantly scrape my face to get rid of it. Or waking in the morning cringing when I see the facial growth in the mirror.
last time I started electrolysis, I did a few sessions then decided to pause it until I had more money to do it quicker.
You see, because you have to wait at least 7 to 10 days to let the hair grow in again before you can give it another session, then you end up with a period of time with facial hair. On the top lip in my case at the time.
but I could only afford at the time to go back once a month. This meant having to pretty much grow a moustache in between each session. It was horrible.
so I decided to wait til I had the money to go back after the minimal waiting time and to get as much work done as I can within the one session. I do t mind the pain really. It’s just been the cost that’s been the issue.
Start cooking more
I really want to get back into cooking proper meals again like I used to years ago.
for the past few years, especially within the past year where I e only had a microwave to cook with, I’ve got lazy. I e been eating complete garbage like ready meals.
But now I have a nice kitchen with conventional cooker, I plan to get cooking again. In fact, I e ready been enjoying making wholesome meals since I moved in.
so this is something I plan to get used to again. This will hopefully improve my health as well as my pocket as it’s economically better cooking from ingredients than it is buying ready meals or takeaways.
Get on Top of Officialdom
For the past few years I’ve bern struggling a lot when it comes to sorting out official things and often, when my depression is bad, I struggle to cope with it. Instead of dealing with letters and particularly phone calls, I end up pushing it out of my mind and burying my head in the sand.
This coming year, now that I’ve finally got my house, I want to try and get on top of these things. I’m hoping to get some help after about 7 years of pleading with the government and my doctor.
Hopefully by getting on top of stuff like this, it will improve my mental health. I find when a lot of things like this start piling up, it affects my mental health and makes it even more of a struggle to tackle
Get Started with HRT
well, last but most certainly not least, I’m very much hoping to be on hormones by the end of the year, if not long before.
It has been quite a long wait just to get an appointment at the Gender clinic since I first referred with my GP over 2 years ago, but my patience finally seems to be paying off. Last week I at last got an appointment with the Chalmers clinic in Edinburgh on the 6th of February.
The Initial appointment will take place virtually online with a webcam. I’m hoping that it won’t take much longer after that to finally get prescribed the necessary hormones I need.
When I first made a referral, I actually anticipated it taking much longer, so I guess it’s a bonus as I’d initially heard an estimated time of around 5 years. I think some of the other gender clinics still have really long waiting lists like this.
Working Towards my New years Resolutions
So, it’s looking like this year is going to be quite challenging. But the past year has been a challenge just to survive and keep warm n dry.
So at least this year’s challenges will be a positive improvement by achieving these goals.
I’m also hoping that by writing them down in a list like I have done here, will help me toward achieving them. It means that I can go back over them throughout the year and see how I’m progressing.
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